First Love

Ever get something brand new?  Something that maybe you have been waiting a long time for?  I remember getting new things and that excitement I had for a while. Then eventually the excitement faded and whatever once was special is now just ordinary.   It’s weird how something can go from exciting to ordinary.  The ironic part is that something didn’t change, what changed was our view of it.  What was once new and fresh become routine.
If I was honest with myself, sometimes my walk with God can go through these moments.  There are times where I feel like it's exciting, I see God moving and I am in awe of what’s happening around me.  There are times I read my Bible and I am inspired.  Every conversation I am having with someone connects to a bigger vision.  I wish I could live in those moments and constantly be there.
Then there are other times.  These seem to happen more often lately.  Times where I don’t feel connected.  Times where I don’t feel inspired.  Times where I feel like I am stuck.  In those moments it is easy to beat myself up and wonder “where did I slip and how do I get back up?”
Late last week I was up at midnight reading my Bible when these verses hit me like a ton of bricks.
Revelation 2:4-5
But I have this complaint against you. You don’t love me or each other as you did at first![b] 5 Look how far you have fallen! Turn back to me and do the works you did at first..
I read those lines over and over again.  “You don’t love me like you did at first…Turn back to me and do the works you did at first…
In this chapter the church that is receiving this letter isn’t loving God like they did at first and so many times I am in the same boat. 
I was challenged to get back to that spot where my first love was. 
·       Instead of viewing my Bible as something I have to read, I am excited to see what God has to say to me.
·       Instead of thinking of my prayers as something I have to say, I am talking with God in every moment of my day.
·       Instead of avoiding spiritual conversations, I am itching to share the vision of my church with people I meet.
I am remembering the things I loved about my walk with Jesus and choosing to refresh that first love every day.


Joe Leal | Student Ministries Director

Jenn Bander